So I've decided

So I’ve decided…

That is a phrase that I say a lot.  However, the things that I “decide” to do…. I don’t always follow through on. “So I’ve decided to learn to speak French”,  “So I’ve decided to take Karate lessons”, “So I’ve decided that I should call my parents at least once a week”, “So I’ve decided to do my own cooking show”,  “So I’ve decided to start a retirement fund”, “So I’ve decided to get a 6 pack” (Ab’s, not beer……..ok, maybe beer too……)  “So I’ve decided to be more responsible”, And so on.

It’s not easy though, especially when you have ADD, no will power and a general lack of interest. My intentions are always good and I mean to do the things I say I’m going to, but I am easily distracted (usually by something shiny) and just plain forget to do the things that I have decided to do because there are at least 5 new ones a week.

So I’ve decided that this is going to change. Today is January 21^st, 2012.  I am about 3 weeks from my 34^th birthday and on the cusp of finishing my red seal in culinary arts.  Like it or not, I am a grown up and I’m going to have to start (begrudgingly) acting like one.

I’ve decided that I am finally going to do all of those things that I have previously attempted to do. I am going to learn to speak French, take Karate lessons, call my parents every week, do my own cooking show, start a retirement fund, be more responsible AND get a 6 pack….first of beer, then ab’s.

To do all these things, I’ve decided to start a blog to my track my progress and maybe provide insight, inspiration and a little houmour along the way. At the very least, I'll provide a skewed, drunken vision of reality.

So here it goes……

Saturday January 21^st, 2012

11:15 pm

So I’m not exactly off to the best start in terms of being more responsible. I am 3 weeks in to my 5 weeks of school to finish my apprenticeship and I should be writing a paper on cholesterol, but instead I am writing this blog.  This is what I mean when I say that I am easily distracted. I was literally right in the middle of writing my paper when I had this idea, so, true to my ADD form, I opened a new word document and started typing. It didn’t help that I had a bottle of wine. My mind tends to wonder even more when I have a cocktail…..or 6.. However, I think that this is good for me. Even though I am distracting from the task at hand, I need this little moment of distraction to help me focus, if that makes sense. By putting this down on paper is going to help me focus on the things that I need to focus on, again, if that makes sense. It does to me and that’s all that matters…..I am however a little drunk, so it probably doesn’t make any sense at all.  Ok, that’s enough deep thinking for one night. I’m going to take my cocktail and watch Chelsea lately and then maybe order a pizza (diet starts tomorrow) and then go to bed. Wayne and I are going to Costco in the morning.

………..Ok, I just read what I just wrote and no, it doesn’t’ make much sense…….but it’s a start……and I’m drunk so shut up.